freehand digital painting

model: kittin


UPDATE: I decided to revamp and release this in time for Valentines day (since i was late last year) I changed the tones, i went for muted, as if she's gone a bit cold (which reflects the concept). I played around with her hair and eyes and I'm finally satisfied (for now) with them. I hope you all have wonderful Valentine's days with your loved ones. And to those without special someones, i'm with you. next year babies, next year...



processes in my gallery

Sorry for what will be a novel length description but please read it.

I don't really care about pageviews, having over 100k isn't as important as having good artwork with content. And that's something I'm always striving for, moreso than comments and pageviews. And pageviews don't matter in the sense that it doesn' t make me any better than people with 35.

At the same time It does matter because you are looking at my work, and you're commenting and faving, and it means so much to me that other people are getting something out of my work.
When i first got here, i had just started photography class and was uploading bad scans of bad photos. I didn't put up much sketch work because it was all mimics of other people's sketch work (copyright people, copyright). Looking at all the fantastic photography here made me better, ok, it made me jealous, which made me better (envy can be a good thing if it leads you somewhere positive). I started having concepts and I learned more about my cameras (though I still have yet to read my manuals). Later there were wonderful responses to my photos.

I started sketching them, I was given a copy of photoshop... (as if i could afford it!) and it was like a light went off.

I started mimicking my own photos.

and then we had our ups and downs and I wanted to leave. But I didn't and I'm very glad. I've learned to have a thicker skin, to believe in myself and that people can be both terrible and wonderful over the internet as it allows us to drop our masks.
The point is that Deviant Art, you, have helped me grow as an artist and as a person. In coming here I was no longer satisfied with what i was, and I strived to make more of my work. I think I have, and I hope you do too. (and I hope you feel that you're growing as well) There's one reason why I don't delete the crap in the back of my gallery, I don't want anyone to think i just emerged with my better pieces, I want you to see that I was bad, and I worked on it. I've had people stop by my page telling me how talented I am and continuing to say they could never be as talented. Exactly why can't you be talented? This "I'm not good enough" crap, it's really not true, you just have to work... er, a lot... but it can be fun! Just try... If I gave up, i would be in bed, horribly depressed. So don't quit, because I have faith in you.

so thank you all for being so lovely to me.
dedicated to the amazing people who helped me grow. thank you for your wonderful comments and having me on your watch



PS. Thanks for reading that.